Since you asked

Wanting to check in with you all
I will post this here
It is a email to a dear friend of mine
and it pretty much sums up where I am at:

Since you asked darlin
It's been a rough couple of days
Just peeling back the layers, trying to see what is there
Feeling like here I should be all joy
I have this wonderful opportunity to be here
and I am having a really rough time with it
Today is better
Trying to do good things
last night tai chi and a great seminar on Kabbalah
some LIve Indian music was playing
and I danced my ass off
lots of sauna breathing it out
wanted very much to talk with you last night
that part is frustrating, not having my own phone
feeling a bit dissconected to my people
the new ones I am making are good though, yet sometimes a bit complicated
what else is new I guess i can be complicated too
then there was this animal preying around my tent in the middle of the night
scary, is it a skunk or a coyote? stayed up all night with my big flashlight in my hand to fend it off
swore I was leaving today because of it
Oh the middle of the night worries
Today is my day off
working on my resume, feeling a big of anxiety about what's next
and how about you my dear? how are you?
I want to know