Thursday, May 08, 2008

This is where I am

Just saying hello
been taking some time off from here
Theres been lots to write about
Just not so compelled to post it here
and some time off from my bloggity blawg
Not sure how I feel about joujoujolliejunket right now
Not feeling as private as I need it to be for the next stage of my life
Feeling complete with it all really
And then when I went back and read that indeed it was like I was "riding into the sunset"
I felt as if Wow, that was kind of a perfect closing for it
But then some dear friends reached out and said "hey where are you"
and that felt good that people still check in on me here

So, I am thinking of starting something new and exciting
If you are interested , please send me a message and I will let you know whats next
I'm not convinced of this, just flirting right now, so stay tuned
In the meantime, all is well here, and I wish the same for you dear friends

Friday, April 04, 2008

Riding off into the sunset... (literally)

I finished my job yesterday
It felt as if I was breaking up with fourty families
It was a great gig
for that time
I am in gratitude
and ready to move on
into the next
allowing the mystery to unfold

and I know that as hard as it is it was to leave
it was time
time to ride off into the sunset
and I did this, literally
one of the first warmer nights of the season
with some breezy 70's lovey tune
rolling over the hills and onto the Kingston bridge
who's views rivals any other natural habitat
feeling utterly... serene
a feeling I have not been in touch with in a long while

This winter has pushed me
it's been my marathon
and I feel as if I am only coming up for
and I am certainly reaping my harvest as well
and have lots that I am enjoying and I am looking forward to a whopping ten days off
spending them getting ready for our upcoming move (again) then off for a jaunt with my sister who is flying in from Telluride for an east coast family tour

I think I was able to make some sort of impact in my work too
and it feels good to know that
and I am proud of the work these kids did on themselves
It's not easy to go into a room
with a complete stranger
at age 6, 11, 16
and tell them your deepest darkest secrets
to be able to be vulnerable enough to share
how daddy took off or how that mean person did x y and z to you
I am honored to be that person for them
and as we were wrapping up our work together
it felt good to know that they are in good places right now too
I received so much amazing support feedback from them
and from their parents
it's good to know
it means something
because it does
and I am astounded every day
at how strong and resiliant people are
we all just want to be here

Friday, March 28, 2008


I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings. -Mary Oliver

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Spring Spring Spring!

Hi all! ~*
Happy Spring Equinox!

So after a long ,studious winter, I passed my Social Work Board exams yesterday with a whopping score of 83! So basically this means I am a Licensed Clinical Social Worker in the state of NY and can do private practice, supervision, and all that good stuff. It's the last hurdle in my long history of being a Counselor and I am thrilled, relieved, and celebrating!

I feel so good about it. I worked really really hard on this, in addition to working my butt off at my job and other projects I am working on.I appreciate the way I approached it in the end as well, very positive and calm, using all my good tricks to take care of the nerves you get when approaching something like this. It's good stuff, and I couldn't have done it without the amazing support of my incredible man. Thanks love, you are best! So yes, we are celebrating, it's been a long time coming, and I really thrilled to move on into this next cycle of our life. Colors are brighter, scents are stronger, I can read or study anything I want. I have a long list of good books waiting for me, and I can hardly wait.

I also received the good news that I will be working at a local college as a Counselor for their students. It's a really good school and its a great chance to do my work in a creative and thriving environment, and be in Higher Education which is an amazing field. I've been trying to work at a college for a few years and I finally found the right fit. They want me to start up their "Wellness" curriculum so it's a perfect opportunity to incorporate some of my holistic practices that I have been learning for many years. Yay and Yay! And I have a lot of time off in July (one of the perks for working at a college) so look out my SF peeps, I am heading your way!

So today is the first day of Spring and I wish you all the very best for what ever you are cultivating and growing in your own world.I am going out now to enjoy the blustery winds and muddy piles of snow that are slowly melting, making it's way into the green grass and flowery buds that will soon be showing...

Much love and Happy Spring!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Green Light Go

This week for me is about faith
it is about destiny
and perseverance, hard work, and determination
It's believing that I know what I know
and knowing that I possess
loads and loads of support
which is the secret of my success ~*

For those of you who know me,
you know exactly what I am talking about
and for those that don't,
you hopefully will soon

I've decided this week,
my success is based on
all the spirits of those
I have been honored to work with
who have hopefully gained something from
giving themselves time to take care of themselves
and shine their light so very bright

It's about not attaching to others anxiety
and their own fear of failure
or their real fear of actually succeeding
and that's the real test,
and I feel as if
I've already passed

This week
It's about my positive attitude
and knowing I will get the questions
I will know the answers to
I will be calm and confident and in my power

And this week
is about lots and lots of prayer
so if you have a second and can spare it,
send some my way
shine on...

May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.

St. Theresa's Prayer