Spinning Spinning Spun

I am sitting here at my desk reeling

someone ,something flipped a switch

and everything went zoom zoom zoom

life death change birth love life

this past week has been a twirly whirl indeed

My heart is heavy with the loss of my dear sisters baby

baby spirits are like that

they come when they are ready

and move away when they are not

and come back when they are

in their own time

in the creators own time

not in ours not in ours

We are merely vessels ~ channels~ hosts

but why is it so damn hard? how can this hurt so much?

and to her, to her?

but of course I know my girl will willingly embrace what it is

that she needs to know and feel and be

but in the meantime

it hurts it hurts

I am holding you my dear,

what ever you need,

when ever you need it

take your time

swoosh

and then life

and then life

Two babies this week

the beautiful Isla of Shannon and Eli

and Marina the Princess of Lenira and Sebastian

at the very same time we are abundant and flooding this earth

with powerful women who will move forward with that we leave behind

my heart is full with the wonder of birth and what is to be for these dear spirits

I am hopeful with all of these powerful gorgeous radiant beings that have arrived

and then some birthing of my own

spinning around

settling into what now why how

and wondering what was to come

you come

and you are here

and I see you

and I am here

finally

my heart explodes

my heart explodes

you are here

and i know you meet me there

poof swoosh pow swoon

yes, yes, and yes

passover begins at sundown

full moon is now

spinning spinning spun